who you gonna call?

this is a true story.
it happened on May 25, 2011.

film 21

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shot on my phone as i was caught off guard.

nietzsche is neat

transparent

i want to be transparent.
that could be considered a negative. like i am saying i am striving to be void of content.
but in fact, what i am attempting to do is to be congruent, inside and out.
to be inside what i am outside and vice versa. to live transparency.

grew apart

it happens in nature, so it is only natural that it happens with people.
not everyone is meant to stick it out for the long haul.
and that’s a-o-k.

it’s true love.

music is sweet at all the perfect moments.
music is opinionated and has something to say. but isn’t a jerkface about it.
music can just hang out and help with the laundry and dishes.
music loves roadtrips and makes the miles pass so quickly.

the hidden cameras know what’s what. here’s their song “music is my boyfriend”

film 20

(a week or so late)

my life seems to have themes through the hours, days, weeks and months.
recently, i have watched myself take on too many things. then i lose sight of the basics: eating, sleeping, showering etc. not that i don’t do them, but they become wasted time, wasted energy to me. time that i could use elsewhere.
i am trying to turn it around so instead of these simple tasks taking time, they are taking care.
of me, myself and i.

film 20

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face value

i have caught myself on an occasion or two or 15, sizing myself up to others on social media. even though i know it isn’t an accurate portrayal of what life is really like, for me or them.
despite intellectually ‘knowing’ that, it doesn’t stop me from the incongruent comparison.

<3 i.q.

my head is a know-it-all, a bossy pants.
it thinks it can find the why of it all.
but it can get it wrong. many times over.
whereas my heart knows better.
it can learn, remember, feel, comprehend and sense.

ironic

i dunno if alanis morissette would find this ironic or not, but i do.
beyonce’s new single “rule the world (girls)” is an anthem for supposed women-empowerment.
alas she uses the word “motherf*cker” in her lyrics.
now i ain’t a hardcore, hardline feminist. i assure you.

but i don’t think this has anything to do with “reclaiming” a word, like “slut walk” says it is attempting to do. i would guess it is just a lyric and no more thought was given to it than that. unfortunately.
then again, maybe not.

watch the video here.

giving up

i have fought hard. i had pushed through and proved it.
but it is in the giving up and giving in.
that’s where i came across courage, hope and strength.
i am letting go of what i think is best, to allow what is best.

the songs n’ shows of old man luedecke can be found here.